right now, i dont even feel like i have friends anymore. All they are now to me are just people i envy...
and you know what....i envy them so much, i feel so inferior...as if i dont matter to the world
im not allowed to say anything about my past
but i can tell you that there was a time...when i meant everything to the world-i had a meaning!!
wheather it was intercepting the battle between heaven and hell or uniting mer people with local creatures-i had a reason to live!
and it all paid off! it really did! i survived through the world as it was back in the 900's!! and you didnt survive shit!!
dont you see!? i have nothing to do in this life!! there's absolutely no reason why i have been given a second life in the first place!
sure i did this and did that, but it's all history, and there is nothing left


.....nothing.....left....

just a corrupt world...with unhealing wounds....